Mire jó a Tummo (belső tűz)?

fireMúlt héten kezdtük a legujabbi hat hetes szakaszt, amelynek a témája a “Tummo”, vagyis a tibeti belső tűz meditáció.  Örülök annak, hogy van lehetőségünk hosszabb időt tölteni ezzel a témával, amely az alapja az összes további meditációnak a tantrikus tibeti Buddhizmusban.  Az egyik órában valaki megkérdezett: “De végül is mire jó a Tummo?  Örülök, ha felmelegszem tőle, de ezenkívűl miért gyakaroljuk?”

Jó kérdés.

Az az igazság, hogy a meleg csak mellékhatás.  Azért gyakaroljuk, mert ennek köszönhetően lehet a fizikai világ mögötti igazságokba belepillantani.

Ezzel kapcsolatosan az egyik nemrégi beszélgetes az éber álom csoportból eszembe jut.  Arról volt szó, hogy ha éber álomban (szemeddel) fixálsz egy mozdulatlan pontra, akkor az álom összeolvadni, szétoszlani kezd.  Ugyanez törnénhet itt is a 3D-es világban is.  A Tummo-val is fixálsz egy pontra a koncentrációddal és belső energiáddal.  És úgyszintén az itteni 3D-es álom is lassan összeolvadni fog.  Csak egy kicsit több időre és koncentrációra van szükséged, mert az itteni világ stabilabb, sűrűbb mint az álom világ…

De végül is nincs különbség.  Mind Tummo-val mind álmodással lehet megtapasztalni, hogy minden, amely van csak álom – nem csak elméleti feltételezéssal hanem közvetlen megélésen keresztül.  Így a tudatlanságból felébredsz!

5 napos vízböjt: 6. nap


thumbs-upIt worked!  I’m talking less about finishing the five-day fast itself (this isn’t such a big challenge for me any more), than about my experiment with no transition back to normal eating afterwards.  I ate lots last night, not only the mung beans and rice, but also about 100 grams of nuts too, as well as a huge salad :-).  Digestion is already working fine.  The first food I had was at lunchtime: just a couple decilitres of carrot juice and a couple of teaspoons of tahini and hempseed butter.  I hoped this would send a physical message to my digestive system to prepare for a proper meal in the evening.  After that I ate nothing until dinner.  Along with trying to consciously tell my digestive system to wake up through yesterday afternoon, it seems to have worked.

I don’t recommend this to anyone without a lot of fasting experience and self-knowledge of their body.  Otherwise, it’s always best to start eating again with little portions of easily digestible food, like fruit or cooked vegetables.  And before taking in any solid food at all, it’s usually best to start with drinking fruit juices – perhaps for a whole day before starting on solids again.

The only thing which isn’t back to normal (besides my weight!) is my appetite.  I expect it to take a few days at least to regain the two kilos I lost.  In the meantime I plan to get it back on track by reinforcing my normal biorhythm, eating at the usual times, regardless of how hungry I am.  This way I’ll return to full strength in the fastest possible time.  Again, I’d normally recommend against this, since it’s easier on the digestive system to let the appetite return by itself.  But I want to get out there again, barefoot running :-).

I plan on another five-day fast in about 6 months.  I used to do 10 day fasts once per year, but they were too intrusive into family life, as well as taking too much time out of my love for running.  For me, 2 × 5 works just as well as 1 × 10, and it’s much easier to fit into everyday life!

5 napos vízböjt: 5. nap

Let’s talk about food!

feastThe transition out of a fast is at least as important as the transition into a fast.  Once your stomach and digestive system have been asleep for a few days, you can’t just immediately pack it full with a deluxe pizza – no matter how attractive the thought of a good meal!  I made the mistake of doing exactly this after my first 7-day water fast.  I suffered with that pizza in my stomach for the next two or three days…

You need time to wake your digestive system up again, otherwise you’ll just overload it.  This means being careful in both what you eat and how much you eat.  The best thing is to follow your appetite.  It could easily take a week for things to return to normal.

So what’s my plan for transitioning back at the end of this fast, this evening?  I’m going to try no transition at all.  Sounds stupid, I know, but if my system can switch off so easily (as it’s done the last couple of fasts), I’m hoping that it will have learned how to switch back on equally fast.  I enjoy experimenting with my body – it’s the best way to learn!  The fact is that if your eating a vegan diet, there’s no real need for much of a transition into a fast.  Without meat and dairy clogging up your system, it’s just a question of grains and especially gluten products like wheat to think about.  If you’re vegan and not too sensitive to gluten, then you can start a fast any time you want.  On top of that, today is my 40th day of water fasting, if you add up the individual 5, 7 and 10 day fasts that I’ve done.  I think the body reaches a point where it knows what to do, and maybe the magical number of 40 days is what you need.

I feel good this morning.  A little weak in the legs, it’s true, but energy levels are good, and I was simply able to walk off the dull feeling in my kidneys this morning.  The more intense detox period yesterday lasted through until about midnight.  I was freezing through most of the evening!  After that it calmed down, and everything has gone smoothly since then.

So I soaked the mung beans overnight, and they’re pre-boiling now for a couple of hours.  My recipe is at the end of this post.

In the meantime, I’m going to be sending subconscious messages to myself through the day: that it’s time for the digestive system to wake up soon.  When everyone else is having lunch, I may also have a taste of carrot juice and literally just a nut or two.  Again,  another reminder to the stomach without significantly affecting the biology of the fast.

It’s strange that during this fast I’ve been craving protein and salts.  During most fasts I’ve craved sugars: instant energy to compensate for a lack of energy.  But this time I can’t complain about that, even if physically I’m not as strong as usual.  No: this time I think a deeper craving is going on.  Maybe my usual diet is too low in protein.  After the fast, I’m also thinking about lowering carb content and raising fats, so that the process of ketosis (direct burning of fat) initiated over the last few days can continue in combination with the usual glycogen-based (carbs and sugars) metabolism.  This should help during longer runs, because the most efficient use of energy during aerobic endurance activities actually occurs though ketosis.

I’ll post tomorrow on whether the no-transition exit of the fast succeeded or back-fired!  In the meantime, here’s my own recipe for curried mung beans and rice (serves 5-6 people):

Mung beans and rice:

mung beans and rice500g mung beans
500g basmati rice
@400ml tomato passata
2-3 dl. soya or oat milk
3 onions
3-4cloves of garlic
curry powder
garam masala
2 teaspoons coriander paste (if available)
coconut oil
toasted sesame oil

Soak the mung beans overnight, replacing the water as often as possible.

Fry the onions and garlic, and add the curry powder towards the end to prevent burning.  I use mostly Korma mild curry powder and add about 4-5 heaping tablespoons, but you can play with the quantity and type of curry powder.  Today I also added some Tikka, which is a little spicier.  Add a heaping tablespoon of garam masala as well as some salt, and fry for another couple of minutes.  When the flavours have cooked through into the onions, add the passata and soya/oat milk into the frying pan  Alternatively, tinned tomatoes or fresh tomatoes also work.  Continue to heat for another few minutes.

In the meantime, place the mung beans in a large pot and cover with about 3 litres water.  Add the mixture from the frying pan and bring to the boil, scooping off any foam which forms.  Boil for at least an hour and a half.  (At the end of this, you can use a blender to soften the mixture into a more soup-like texture if you want.  I usually blend just a little, leaving the original texture of about most of the beans.)

At this point, you can leave the pot for the rest of the day, until dinner time, when you’ll add the rice and finish the dish.  The main thing is that, once you’re about 10-15 minutes before you want to serve, you should add the rice to the boiling pot.  Add a few tablespoons of cinnamon and coconut oil, a dash of toasted sesame seed oil, and the coriander paste.  Now you just need to pay attention to the consistency of the fluid.  The rice should absorb most of the water, leaving a wonderful mushy mixture.  If there’s too much water, you’ll have to pour some off (which is a shame).  If there’s too little water (which is the better option), you’ll need to add water little by little until the rice softens and you have the right consistency.  Basically this final part of the cooking is like when you make risotto, adding water to the rice as it boils.

If you’re not vegan, you can also add yogurt, as in the picture above.


5 napos vízböjt: 4. nap

This is the last full day of my fast, since the fifth full day actually ends tomorrow at dinner time.  I find myself looking forward to cooking dinner tomorrow and getting back to normal again.  It’s like the opposite of what happened before the fast, in saying goodbye to food before the actual fast.  Now it’s a funny combination of the clarity of consciousness while on a fast, and yet with the frequent pull away from being here and now by thinking about the menu…


The day started a little slower than yesterday.  In the end, I think yesterday’s activity did tire me out a little.  But I can’t complain.  In earlier fasts, I always paid the price for too much exertion: tiredness through the whole next day, probably with muscle aches too.  Last night, I did have trouble controlling my body temperature, and felt cold – something which I’ve often experienced in the past during fasts.  I also woke up with low blood pressure and a feeling of weakness in the legs.  My kidneys were aching a little, as well as my spine for the first time during this fast. (In earlier fasts this has always been a typical feature of detoxing.)  So I did some yoga warm-ups for the back and spine, put on a winter coat and then took the dog out for a half-hour walk.  Someone in the park commented that they’d never seen me dressed up so warmly!  Very true 🙂

Movement definitely helps to move the toxins out, so I had a bath afterwards too.  Since then I’ve been feeling fine.  I wonder about why I felt so slow after waking up this morning…  Ketosis definitely affects energy levels differently from when you burn sugars and carbs (glycogen).  Running on ketosis, your metabolism reacts more slowly to your energy needs.  On previous fasts it would take literally an hour to an hour and a half to reach normal ‘speed’ and feel a normal energy level in the morning.  Similarly, at the end of the day I’d need a long time to fall asleep at night, because it took longer to reduce the ketosis-powered energy.  I definitely feel that, with each fast, my body gets more efficient at using ketosis – and this is one reason why the transition into burning fat at the beginning of this fast has gone so smoothly.  So maybe it isn’t ketosis per se which is slower in reacting to the body’s needs, but rather the body’s inefficient metabolism.  We simply don’t use ketosis in modern everyday life, so we need to learn to adapt.  And of course this takes time.  In other words, it doesn’t matter how many ketones are flowing through your blood if your cells don’t know how to metabolise them efficiently.


glass of waterI’ve gone into some deeper detox and cleansing this afternoon and evening.  I’ve been wearing a sweatshirt and been wrapped up in a blanket for a lot of the time, because I just can’t stay warm.  I feel weaker than usual, my kidneys have been present there in the background, and my tongue is really detoxing a lot at the moment, with this crazy frothing stuff.  I’ve needed to drink a full 3 litres so far today, and will probably end up closer to 4 before going to bed.  I’m just glad I don’t feel generally lousy, as would have happened in the past.  Basically, I feel good, just cold and weak.

In any water fast you get periods of really active detox like this.  It’s something to expect.  There’s no way to know when they’ll occur.  They just appear – and then, a few hours or half a day later, things calm down again for a while before the next more active period kicks in.  Body knows best.  Maybe today, since I was resting for most of the time, it meant that more energy could be focussed on detox rather than on physical energy – which is happened yesterday, when I was running all around the place.

I’m just finishing the fourth day as I write this.  By bedtime I’ll already be into the fifth and last day.

5 napos vízböjt: 3. nap

I can’t believe how smoothly things are going.  On my first couple of water fasts, the 2nd and 3rd days were by far the toughest.  I just wanted to crawl up in a corner and collapse.  In contrast, today it’s been a full day, and I still feel good, full of energy.  It’s amazing the way the body can adapt with a little practice in fasting.  It totally changes the experience.  Here’s what happened today:


Got up.  That’s right: nice and late :-).  I slept well, just as if I weren’t on a fast.  In the past, the lack of regular meals confused my biorhythm, and I’d wake up every two hours or so the whole way through the night.  Now I just feel my kidneys a little, like they’re working.  Nothing uncomfortable, though.  After not drinking anything for about 9 hours, I’d better have at least half a litre now to rehydrate and flush out the kidneys.  I do feel a little slow, though – but nothing like on my first few fasts when I hardly had the energy to get out of bed, and it would take a whole hour or more to feel human!  All my muscles used to ache as well, but now there’s no sign of that at all.


A hot bath plus drinking a whole litre of water has fixed the feeling in my kidneys – I don’t feel them at all any more.  The bath didn’t knock me out like yesterday.  Na, most jön a gusztustalan… Interestingly, the smell of my sweat is different from 24 hours ago.  Less obnoxious, it’s now a kind of bitter, herb-like smell.  And even more interestingly, it’s only my left armpit which stinks!  It’s strange: on every water fast, one armpit always smells stronger than the other.  On my last fast it was the right, the time before that the left…  I don’t know exactly what’s going on, but I trust the body.  It always knows best when it comes to detox.

I cooked the kids some porridge (their favourite for breakfast) and the sight of food doesn’t bother me.  Last night I made curried rice for everyone.  All those spicy smells did make my stomach rumble – it was the first time I’ve been a little hungry since yesterday at lunchtime.  Can’t complain.  Physically, this fast is going really smoothly.


It was a busy afternoon – or at least busy for a water fast.  First, I took the girls to a rehearsal for their school Christmas concert, then went to drop off my son at a friend’s and stayed for an hour or so talking with the parents.  Just like yesterday, my mind was clearer while talking than when I’m eating normally.  Then I went back to the school for the concert, collected the girls afterwards and drove them home.  I didn’t drink enough while out of the house, and began to feel my kidneys by the time we got home.  So it was time for another litre of water and – given the holiday spirit with school officially finished now – a miniature glass of mulled wine.

Me and my mulled wine. Egészségetekre!

Now I know what some of you are thinking: thoughts of horror at what I did.  Water fast?  Alcohol?  What a taboo!  Surely I’m headed straight to yogic hell!  For me, though, the important thing is not to disrupt family life too much.  Doing a water fast is provocative for anyone around you, just like it is to be a vegetarian in a meat-eating world.  I don’t want to make a big deal of doing what I’m doing, and want life around me to continue as normally as possible.  So that means doing my share of the family cooking – as well as joining in on some good cheer (even it was rather a small dose).  I wouldn’t have drunk if it endangered the biology of the fast.  But that tiny quarter decilitre glass contained only 20-30 calories: not enough to switch on digestion or slow down the ketosis.  I wouldn’t have drunk it if I felt a craving for the taste of the mulled wine.  But I didn’t.  I was happy to drink it, but there were no extra emotions attached.

I wonder how I’ll feel tomorrow?  On previous water fasts, I’d pay the price for a relatively active day like today.  But my feeling is that I’m going to feel fine tomorrow too.  Hopefully there’ll be some kind of drama at some point – otherwise this blog is going to get pretty monotonous!

5 napos vízböjt: 2. nap


I’m running on ketosis already, burning energy released directly from fat cells.  I could feel the process beginning late afternoon yesterday, because there’s a special state of consciousness which goes along with this.  You feel a little light-headed, but everything you look at feels alive and special.  It’s a clearer, deeper state of being.  I took our dog out for a walk last night, and all the lights were alive.  Traffic lights, Christmas lights, traffic lights, the clouds in the sky, illuminated by all the light from the city…

City-Lights-Night-Sky-BackgroundThe interesting thing is how quickly the change towards ketosis began to occur: while there was still glycogen (see yesterday’s post) left in the liver.  I think that the moment I missed lunch yesterday, my body knew what was going on and it responded.  Not like my first couple of water fasts!  Then my body was completely clueless.  It took at least 3 days to get ketosis running decently, and in the meantime my body had to devour muscle for energy.  I felt pretty lousy most of the time, with muscle aches, headaches, and all the while a dull pain in my kidneys – at times it was even hard to sleep because of this.  This time there are no physical symptoms at all.  I feel great.

The process of detox also began yesterday afternoon, and is now running ahead at full steam.  I know because there’s a special taste in my mouth.  As digestion shuts down, the entire system goes into reverse.  Instead of allowing nutrients through the intestinal wall and into the blood, the body allows the toxins circulating in the blood to pass through the intestinal wall, where they are stored in the intestine itself until digestion starts up again, and they can be safely released from the body.  The tongue also follows a similar procedure, which is why it now has a funny taste.  When I’m detoxifying strongly, it’s almost like frothing at the mouth!

Another thing: because my digestive system is already mostly shut down, I haven’t been hungry since missing lunch yesterday.  I just need to keep drinking.  Yesterday it was 3 litres.  I expect about the same today too.


Just had a long, hot bath.  Baths feel really good during a water fast, because they increase circulation, which allows the toxins to find their way out of the blood stream more quickly: either into the kidneys, intestines, tongue or sweat glands.  The detoxifying sweat from sitting in a hot bath means I really stink!  The sweat coming out of me now smells completely different from usual.  My breath must also really stink…

Besides this, for some reason the bath has really knocked me out this time.  I feel heavy.  No energy.  Blood pressure too low.  I think I’m going to lie down and take it easy: maybe read or snooze.  Maybe I’m dehydrated?


Had a nap.  Feeling fine again.  Good energy levels.  No hunger even though it’s lunchtime.  During my first few water fasts, the hunger took 3-5 days to subside, and even then there would be moments in every day when my stomach would rumble long and hard.

Biscotti-Christmas_0012The kids just arrived back from their last day at school.  I’m up to their energy levels, which are on a massive sugar high from all the shit they ate during the osztály karácsony!!!  They also came back loaded with chocolates and gingerbread which everyone at school gave each other.  They want to show me everything!!!  Luckily, the sight of all this food doesn’t bother me (although it is a little tempting, I have to admit…).  But it doesn’t make me hungry.  Lia even forced me to have a nibble from the corner of a gingerbread someone made her.  The taste was sweet and rich – almost too rich!  I don’t want the taste of anything, let alone anything in my stomach to start up digestion again, along with feelings of hunger.  So far, though, it hasn’t had any effect.


Just returned from giving a two-hour consultation in the yoga studio.  Energy good.  With ketosis my body is a little weaker than usual, but my mind is working more clearly than usual.  Speaking Hungarian feels easier than usual.  Hál istennek…

Still no hunger.  Still no signs of my kidneys aching, working overtime to flush out the toxins.

Time to go to the shops and buy some food to cook dinner (for everyone else!!!).

5 napos vízböjt: 1. nap

Tegnap elbúcsúztam a ételtől…  It wasn’t anything ceremonious or even anything planned, but at lunch I noticed myself saying goodbye to the food I was eating: “this is the last lunch for the next five days…”  And then again at dinner, a final feeling of farewell to food: my last meal of any kind for the next five days.

farewellI’ve been water-fasting for the last five years, usually once or (more recently) twice a year.  A water fast (vízböjt) means not taking any calories into your body for the duration of the fast: drinking only water or, at most, an occasional herb or gyógy tea.  It’s a wonderful way to detoxify the body and appreciate food for what it really is, starting on a “clean slate” at the end of it: freer from the usual addictions to food we all suffer from, as well as from the addiction to eating itself.

The day before a water fast I’m always filled with feelings of both excitement and trepidation.  It’s like standing on the starting line before running a marathon.  There’s a long road ahead, and you can never really know with complete certainty what’s going to happen along the way – as much as the uncertainty is itself part of the fun!  In many ways, undertaking a water fast and running a marathon are similar, not only psychologically but physically as well.  More about that tomorrow…

Over the next five days, I’m going to post daily about how I feel and what it feels like to live off water alone.  Right now, it’s nearly 4pm, and my last meal was dinner last night.  I feel good.  Yes, at lunchtime today my biorhythm kicked in with a rumbling stomach.  Yes, I was hungry – but the funny thing is that it’s a different kind of hunger when you don’t expect to be eating anyway.  When you allow yourself the luxury of expecting to eat lunch (and who doesn’t in the modern ‘developed’ world?), when you feel that it’s your right to eat lunch, then your ego starts shouting the moment lunch is late.  And this makes hunger feel much worse.

The worst hunger I felt was on my very first water fast.  My body had never experienced 24 hours without any calories.  An instinctive, animal part of me panicked through the entire day, as if I would die of hunger – even though my rational mind knows that, just like everyone else, I have enough calories stored in fat cells to last a full 40-day fast.  Now my body is wiser, and my ego gives less resistance.  It’s ok with the thought of not eating for the next five days (or at least it’s ok at the moment!).  So my stomach rumbles.  Ennyi.  Or, more precisely, it goes like this: stomach rumbles, ego immediately jumps in with: “I want to eat!”  Then, in the same moment, a deeper part of me recognises the ego-game and responds with: “Jól van, jól van!  It’s ok!”  And that’s it.  Done.  Yes, it happens every time my stomach rumbles now, but over the next few days my ego is going to get used to not eating, and so it’s going to stop complaining.  On top of that, the entire digestive system shuts down over the first few days, which shuts down a lot of the feeling of hunger along with it.

During the first 24 hours of any water fast, there’s enough glycogen stored in the liver to compensate for any lack of energy through the lack of eating.  The real question is what happens tonight when my usual fuel tank hits empty.  I’m hoping my body is already switching over to ketosis (the direct burning of fat cells which happens only during a water fast or special low-carb diets).  This takes practice, and on your first water fast you can expect to feel pretty awful at this point, with headaches, cramps, a total lack of energy, and possible nausea as well…  For me, the transition towards ketosis has become smoother with each fast.  My last water fast in April-May went so smoothly that I hardly noticed the transition at all.

Well that’s all for now.  Ma délelött a jóga óráktól is elbúcsúztam.  Now there’s nothing more to do than… not eat!